Tuesday, March 19, 2013
My life is a balancing act.
Life requires balance.
My dad used to marvel at the fact that we are the only species that walks solely on our two hind legs. Others may do it from time to time but not all the time as we do. He said that this is just another illustration that we as humans require balance in all things.
I remember a time I called my dad for advice. I was struggling with wanting more out of life. I felt I had some talents that I wasn't developing or wasn't sure how to necessarily develop but wanted to work on. I was working for a mortgage company and didn't feel that was what my skill set was and that I wasn't doing what God had intended for me.
He told me that he struggled with this same concept. He was very talented musically. He loved music, singing, writing songs, practicing the guitar, piano and most of all the banjo. He was amazing. He said that he also loved being a dad. Being a provider and being there for his kids. If he were to really pursue his dreams as a musician he feels under the circumstances he wouldn't be able to spend enough time with his kids. My parents were divorced so he already had time with his kids as a disadvantage, being that he didn't live with us.
He said this is why he really loved his band Ridin The Faultline. He could sing, play the banjo, Dobro, perform and yet be there for his kids. It was his perfect balance.
I struggle with balance everyday. How much time and effort do I put in one particular area vs. another. I want a spotless house but when I am home I spend all my free time with my kids so the house isn't in the order I would chose. I want to pursue opportunities that come my way yet I want to always be there for my husband and kids. I want to rest my body yet I want to workout and stay healthy and active and let's face it SANE.
I teach for what we "Mormons" or Latter Day Saints call Relief Society. It's the third hour of our meeting and it's where all the women gather while the kids are in primary and men are in their meetings. It's a great calling for me b/c I don't get to go to church every week since some weekends I work and can't get back in time for my 9am ward meeting. This helps me really focus on gospel topics and do greater studying of gospel topics so I can try and teach what I have learned. :D
Our lesson on Sunday was on perfection. Although perfection is nothing one can obtain in this life, it focused on being perfect in the areas we can be and being better today than we were yesterday and better tomorrow than we are today. I love this. Life is a journey. As long as we have our goals and sights set on wholesome activities, building up others, being Christlike and kind and always wanting to improve our skills, being the best version of ourselves we can be....than we are well on our way.
I try and keep this lesson in mind while I am trying to gain balance in my life between being a wife, lover, mom, sister, daughter, teacher, instructor, friend...it all requires a serious balancing act. I will try to gain this by being better today than yesterday, and better tomorrow than today...this is the goal at least. ;) I haven't done Miss B's hair today yet so I'm still somewhat pulled together. lol Give me an hour or so and we shall see where I am at..and there is always tomorrow. :D
Posted by Kass Martin